So, we're six months in and at the stage where we realise it's not going to get any worse and probably not going to get any better (although, who knows what might happen with this documentary filming). We've got a year and a few months left but really, things dial down in about a year's time.
I'm the Chair of Contact (spouses' thing) and Rich is in charge of a charismatic thing in college & he's the New Wine rep. He's about to do his summer placement at Holy Trinity, Cheltenham and needs to decide where to do his 2nd year placement, possibly at Radio Oxford or in an asylum-seekers' detention centre. We also lead worship at church, do the occasional kid's group, teach a bit of Lifeshapes in and out of college and we still manage to do a bit of travelling the country speaking/networking on the back of our St. Thomas' reputation.
So there's plenty happening and, unsurprisingly, Rich has fallen behind in his work this term.
Before I suddenly became what has been called "high-priestess" of Contact, I was feeling a bit frustrated and D2-ey. Is this it? Are we wasting 5 years of our lives (training + curacy)? I know we have to do it; the time is definitely now. But I've been thinking about how apostolic people have an almost felt need to influence and determine their surroundings; they have to instigate things!
I was thinking about Mike Breen's "The Apostle's Notebook" (incidentally, now selling on Amazon for £65!) and the things in there that, when I first read them, made me cry with frustration, mostly because I hadn't the capacity to fulfil my dreams! That's how I've been feeling - like, what is there to do, to really grab hold of and shape and change and make happen here? In fact, I was feeling that need so badly and then, almost overnight, I was made Chair and I had something to do!
Contact's not a big deal - at all! But, I have a team (we scrapped the term "committee"!), some people to lead and loads of grace to do it with, so I'm happy.
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