It's been many months since I've posted any comments on this blog. Family life has been in a constant whirl since April. Contact (the spouses' group at college) has been a lot of hard work but very successful so far but is has put a strain on the family.
College has been going through a very public and traumatic time which is taking it's toll on us. We're struggling here as the atmosphere is quite deadly and there doesn't seem much point in being here (sounds terrible but it feels like that quite a lot!).
I think God is breaking us a little too. We feel under a lot of pressure and have various deadlines on us all the time (essays, Contact, birthdays, Rich off to Uganda to name some) so we feel tired. I am nearly always lonely, not really unusual for me but every now and then I hope that will go away and it doesn't.
The great thing is that we've found a really good curacy - a job for Richard that will be stretching and exciting. Unfortunately, we won't start that until June but as long as we know that God is dealing with us here, we can wait.
I feel as though theological college has changed me (even though I'm not the ordinand). Richard has survived almost intact but I do feel that I've come under whatever is hanging out here. I feel more inhibited, less content, more 'conservative', less 'charismatic' - basically confused about things but I'm trying to ignore it all and I'm expecting it to all fall off me once we've left Oxford. Some things I'm allowing to sit with me as God is using them to speak to me but generally I'm not losing sleep about them.
I think basically, I need a holiday.
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